Courtney Stodden wrote suicide note after Chrissy Teigen’s cyberbullying
Courtney Stodden is reflecting on the online bullying she has endured in the past.
The 30-year-old appeared in the ABC News documentary “IMPACT x Nightline: Confessions of a Child Bride,” which premieres on Hulu on Thursday, to discuss the treatment she received after marrying Doug Hutchison in 2011 when she was 16 and he was 51.
In a YouTube clip, Stodden sat down with “Nightline’s” Juju Chang and revealed, “I did actually almost succeed at committing suicide because [the cyberbullying] was a huge part of it. I had a suicide letter written.”
She added, “I remember my last thought was, ‘You know, maybe I don’t deserve to be here when people that high up are telling me I don’t deserve to be.’”
Stodden was seemingly referencing tweets written by Chrissy Teigen in 2011. The model, 39, allegedly told the then-teenager, “My Friday fantasy: you. dirt nap.”
“I know she’s saying that this was from alcohol or whatever she wanted to say it was from: Saying this to a child when you’re the queen of Twitter, it was so much,” Stodden explained.
The Post has reached out to Teigen’s rep for comment.
Stodden, who divorced Hutchison in 2020, said that looking back, she would love to “grab” her younger self and “give her a hug.”
Teigen’s old tweets resurfaced in 2021, which led the cookbook author to issue a public apology.
“Not a lot of people are lucky enough to be held accountable for all their past bulls–t in front of the entire world. I’m mortified and sad at who I used to be. I was an insecure, attention seeking troll,” she wrote on X at the time. “I am ashamed and completely embarrassed at my behavior but that is nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel.”
Stodden previously told The Daily Beast that Teigen was only one of many celebrities that sent her hateful comments after she gained notoriety.
“She wouldn’t just publicly tweet about wanting me to take ‘a dirt nap’ but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself. Things like, ‘I can’t wait for you to die,’” the singer revealed of Teigen. “Some of the worst treatment I got was from women, and we’re not going to get anywhere if we keep holding each other back.”
In 2022, Stodden realized she was still blocked online by the former runway star.
“I haven’t checked, but I don’t think [I’m unblocked],” she told Page Six during an interview. “Yeah, I’m not seeing she has a Twitter, so maybe she has one and I’m just blocked from it?”
Stodden added, “Yeah, no, I don’t see anything.”
“I was speaking on this maybe for a few years before [Teigen apologized],” the influencer told the outlet. “I wish that she maybe could have apologized to me.”
“But I never got anything,” Stodden alleged. “So, I didn’t feel touched, let’s say, by the apology … I didn’t get one other than on social media, which felt like she was apologizing to everybody else, but I was blocked.”
“It really affected me deeply being told that I’m worth more dead [and that] people want to see me dead. I was getting death threats from the normal person to celebrities,” she recalled of the online harassment. “[On] those nights … I would just be supported by a wine bottle.”
“It was enough to be in a situation where I was groomed, but then on top of it, [I started] believing that I am not worth anything,” elaborated Stodden.
“And then having celebrities tell me that, it was hard to process that at the time. Looking back on it and still dealing severely with depression — that I speak on a lot — [Teigen] didn’t help me.”
These days, Stodden continues to urge women to support one another.
“To all the women who have stood up for what’s right, to those who lift each other up and fight together, to every girl who has dreamed and never given up, and to every woman who spreads love and strength—your resilience, courage, and kindness inspire the world,” she wrote via Instagram on March 8. “Happy International Women’s Day to the hard workers, the truth-tellers, and the trailblazers. We rise together!”
